Setback...Sort Of

So technically I haven't started officially trying to be healthy, but I figured I would put forth some kind of effort. However, I've been struggling just like I always have. The difference though is that I'm going to keep going. Usually at this point I would just throw in the towel, but not this time.  I can't give up. I need to accept that my life is on the line if I don't change. My mother died at the age of 49 due to complications from diabetes. It wasn't a quick death, but two long decades of periodic deterioration including the lost of her eyesight in one eye and her leg. I know after watching and living through this that I would never survive this disease. It would destroy me. I can't give up unless I'm planning to give up on life, which I am not ready to do. So this was a setback. I know that I'm going to face daily struggles and obstacles, but I have to know to keep going. I have to have the perseverance to get through it. It's the holidays so am I going to slack, yes, but I can't let it destroy the progress I've made and the progress I want to make.